This is my prison,

My Cell, bound by love.

A love without reasoning,

My inner strength withered.

A shadow of what once was,

Strong woman, vibrant and full.

They take it all, my beautiful children.

The constant bikering, the noise.

Ive become so numb to it all.

Like a machine, plug me in damn it!

Every step forward, such a struggle.

Im so tired, I could run

Of course I dont.

My babies need me, Im a shadow

All sucked out of me, all my self worth,

Allways guilt, give, give, give, until I've nothing left!

Why?!...this must be self abuse.....because,

One day, to turn and look,

Upon an angelic face, bursting with love,

And hope, a sweet smile, and everything...

Everything is great, my lifes purpose.

Tis only but a tiny spark

Left inside my heart

What will become of our sweet pain

Amongst times dancing sprites and fey

Sail onward overland

Where shall our journey end?

Do as you will, but harm him not

Those words spoken easily, swiftly forgot

Dark knight of stoney stature

Fire and Ice within

Shatter yes, that I will

Break in where pain resides

Brimming senses, pounding heart

Heat, too much to bare

Air thick, with sufforcating breath

I fight against the swell

Drawing me inside, it does

Consuming, burning my very soul

So fragile I have become

Darkness swallows my fading light

Envelopes my pain

No more pain, sure enough

No more

Here silence is deafening

Clare

This pain is just too real,

Ive tried so hard to do this right.

My heart, tearing, ripping. . .

I can't escape.

My head, its spinning, wavering,

Oh how I long for relief from torment.

I linger in the doorway of reality,

I dont want to face the monsters there.

Your presence lingers here,

My heart won't let you go.

Captured, trapped inside your gilded cage,

A plaything for you to plunder.

Why does my heart ache so?

I dont understand the chaos,

Yet I have made my bed,

Now I lie in it.